Mind, Body, Spirit: I'm talking about Spirit

Well as of late I've been feeling kind of depressed. And after talking to my sister I realized I have not been following my spiritual practice I've just been going through the motions. I haven't been saging or meditating or listening to my music that calms me and centers me. And that's kind of disturbing to me how I've gotten so caught up with the world that I forgotten to look at myself and evaluate my spiritual self. Therefore, my spirit is weighed down and surrounded by negativity. It's not good. A baby challenge I'm going to church in probably about a year now wait no when it comes start like 3 years ago yeah so I haven't been to church in 3 years that's not good. It's noticeable now that it's coming to my understanding I don't like it how in the world did I get away from going to church every Sunday to not going for 3 years what exactly happened?

Honestly I wish I had been documenting this the whole time all I know is that I stopped going to church because I was trying to join a Baptist Church when I'm a Unitarian universalist I left the Unitarian universalist Church because apparently I'm more conservative than the liberals there. I didn't join the Baptist Church because when I said I wanted to join I told him that I was Unitarian universalist and they rejected me simply because they thought I was a lukewarm Christian but for me Christianity doesn't have a lukewarm or a hot it's either you are or you aren't and to me a Christian is more like the spiritual version of the word which kind of refers to the spiritual connection that's found through meditation I guess it's called the Kundalini experience or whatever it is I don't remember all I know is that it's a little bit different so my definition of Christian might not fit your definition of Christian but I follow the golden rules I don't try to hurt anyone which is why I'm an independent or a what is it a libertarian politically you don't hurt others who don't do anything to you so it's very simple. This is all cobbled together but the reality of the matter is I don't want to go too deep into the political side which is why I'm kind of like glossing over it but spiritually it's kind of like I'm a pagan so to speak but I only believe in one spiritual entity so the Divine Creator is what I believe in and I've lost contact or a deep connection with it and it's disturbing how far away one can get when you neglect your spiritual practices to keep yourself separate from the world because I am a firm believer that I am not made of this world I live in this world. This whole thing didn't come out right but I'm just trying to get my thoughts out.

In the end of it my point is that I have neglected my spiritual side and quite frankly I'm noticing that it's causing a lot of my problems.